Food ... How I Miss Thee!

Upon waking up this morning I was asked by both my parents, "How are you feeling?" ... a question I get asked every morning with the anticipation and hope that our prayers have finally been answered. All I can reply is "another day with hyperemesis."

I spent most of the day yesterday at the hospital. My third trip in a month. 3 liters of fluid and some zofran and phenegren later I was released. We had been praying that they would just keep me this time, at least for 24 hours. But the doctors feared I would catch the flu as it is out of control this time of year, so once again I was sent hope. Thankfully the phenegren through an IV knocks me out and I was able to sleep from 4:30 yesterday afternoon to 7:30 this morning. The doctor gave me orders to be on a strict bland diet with as much fluids as possible, therefore I woke up this morning to soups, rice and jello compliments of a grocery trip my dad took. Although I am grateful for some new flavors to add to my diet I can't help but miss food!

I LOVE to cook. I was telling my mom yesterday that one of my favorite things to do is open up all the windows on a spring day and spend hours preparing an elaborate meal for my husband and I. I'm also a fan of going out to eat ... basically I LOVE FOOD! Therefore one of the hardest things about having hyperemesis is not being able to eat. I haven't had a normal diet in at least 6 weeks. I haven't felt up to cooking in about 8. It's gotten so bad that I literally dream about food at night. Images of gorgeous meals and giant buffets fill my thought and dreams. Commercials of some of my favorite restaurants leave me salivating. I'm telling you ... I MISS FOOD!!!

I have already warned my husband that when I am better he better be prepared to eat and eat a lot! I want Chili's chicken tenders (something I haven't craved in years), Olive Garden salad and breadsticks, and Babe's chicken! I absolutely cannot wait to cook pot roast or southwest eggrolls with homemade salsa!!! Oh Lord how I pray I can eat these things soon!!!

But for today it's another day of soup, rice and jello. I've heard that the 11th week is when your hormones peak the most and starting next week I should start slowly feeling better and that most women with hyperemesis begin to feel back to 'normal' between weeks 14 and 20. I'm praying for the 14 ... or even a miracle! I want to be the girl that wakes up at 12 weeks and am miraculously healed! I know God can do it ... I just have to wait. So I spend my Sunday watching movies on the couch trying to stay as positive as a girl in my condition can. I'm ready to be better ... I WILL get better.